We all have one. Or two. Maybe even five or six.
A dream that whenever we wake up, it's on our minds. When we go to sleep at night, we dream about our dream. We literally eat, drink and sleep our dream.
And the ones who know where that desire came from, spend time with God to make sure they aren't taking a single step without him.
Since I've returned from South Korea, I found myself doing a little more than planning, preparing and patiently waiting (which is what you should be doing to see your dreams manifest).
Because I couldn't (and haven't) find a job and my business stream is going slow, I started to put unnecessary pressure on my dreams. For all of my fellow writers out there, you know that being a fiction writer and pitching agents/publishers is the hardest, most daunting thing that you have to do before the real process begins.
I write all the time, and I write in different mediums. From January to March of this year, I completed two feature film screenplays. A month later, I completed a pilot script. And a month after that, I completed a spec script for Scandal for the Disney ABC writing fellowship.
I was living overseas and found writing to come fluidly. Writing 2500 words a day was nothing while I was living out there. Oh. Did I mention I also finished my first middle grade novel while living there? So yes, it's safe to say a change of environment certainly helps you to clear your mind and get your creative juices flowing.
But something happened between my travels home (flew out of Korea August 15). Besides the untimely death of my grandmother, I couldn't figure out for the life of me why I wasn't able to write as freely as I had been doing all year.
Here's what happened: I had put in close to 60 resumes/applications (since July) and started my freelance writing business on September 7th (re-launched it). My funds from Korea were dwindling and I wasn't getting any call backs for interviews, had been denied unemployment (twice) and we all know what's going on with Congress and the food stamps.
So I began to write to finish another novel. I planned to write one short story a day so I can submit to literary magazines that I knew were paying for short stories. I started plotted, planning and outlining. Then NaNoWriMo was in sight and I started plotting how if I finished this novel by the end of November (which would make it my fourth novel), then I could query by April (after of course getting it professionally edited and doing a massive rewrite).
But NaNoWriMo came and to date, I have about 2,700 words written. I stopped. Here's why:
My dreams aren't meant to be pressured by my current financial struggles. Our dreams are a gift from God. Those desires you feel tugging at your heart day and night were placed there for you to pursue and enjoy the journey along the way. Your dreams should never fall victim to your current circumstances. Or your bank account.
And that's why I want to encourage you all NEVER to put pressure on your dreams. Don't let a bill, a late notice (or shut off notice), a slowly growing business or ANYTHING put unnecessary pressure on your dreams. Once they manifest, you'll be working harder than ever before. Why rush that process? Enjoy the lessons you are learning on the way to achieving your most profound dreams. And keep dreaming.
But go after them everyday. Keep your vision in front of you and remember why you have it in the first place.
For my writer friends out there, keep writing. Even 200 words a day count to something. Don't pressure yourself.
Check out this Balls of Steels post by Jeanne V. Bowerman on Scriptmag.com. Stay encouraged and dreamers everywhere - don't ever stop. Don't ever settle.
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